Snow envy

Have you ever missed someone so much it physically hurts? Every time you think of them it just throws you into a frenzy of pain, and you don't know whether you want to cry, or throw up, or even both. When you lose someone so close to you, it hurts like this. And you'll never know the pain until it happens. Until you wake up in your child like bed and he's gone...Sometimes I find myself searching for him. Like maybe he's still here, or reincarnated or something. Do you ever feel frustrated while looking for someone that you don't know. That's how it feels. Day after day I search, I miss him, I cry. Still it doesn't bring him back. I was watching Jack Frost with my mom, and when Charlie found out the snowman was his dad and he didn't have to search anymore, I envied him. It's funny you know envying a person you don't know, or more likely a fictional character. But I did. How amazing, and phenomenal would it be to see him again, to hold him, for him to tell me it will be okay, that he's still here. Who knows right? I hear we're suppose to get a storm;)