He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me?

I was at the highest of highs. Sitting in my computer chair, which contains now half the leather then what we bought it with, IM'ing you. I couldn't stop laughing. You had me so engrossed in such a silly keyboard I couldn't stop myself. You had said something cute and I bit my lip, thinking about what you looked like at that moment. It was now going on one in the morning. I should have been exhausted. I shouldn't have even been able to keep my eyes from shutting. But yourds were like close pins clasping my eyelids open fiercly. I just wanted to see you. Even if we couldn't speak. Even if we just sat there staring at one another. I needed you. My eyes needed your presence like pancakes need syrup, like Ipods need headphones, like a ferris wheel needs a boy and a girl holding each other at the top. It was desperation. Then a flash of light surged through my computer. I was anxious to read what you had said. Until I read it. You had just wanted to be friends. Which was fine until you stopped speaking to me.
Why do people use the terms, "I really like you, but I just want to be friends?" Why not just say how you feel so when you don't pick up your phone, don't IM, and don't wave in the hallways, no one is freaking out about it. They give you hope.
Something to hold onto, so maybe it wont be so bad.
It's just worse.
Everything about it sucks. I wish there was a creative adjective to use here but there's not. Sucks pretty much sums it up.
You sit there, checking your phone for a new text or a missed call. You sign into Facebook more then twenty times in two minutes hoping you have a new message or notification. You log into your Hotmail account for maybe a missed message there. Then finally your home phone, then MSN, all these things leading up to such an engrossed fascinating drama that you can't quit. Your obsessed.
So why don't they just say, "I'm not into you anymore."
That could work. Sure it would be heartbreaking. But you wouldn't have to deal with all the exhaustion of trying to still catch their attention.
Or maybe that's what they want. People like when they are liked. So maybe they want all of the attention or the power. So FYI, when you are no longer interested.
Don't pretend to be.